Friday, March 25, 2011

Digital or Analog?

Last week I got my first iPhone. I love it. I love everything about it. I went right out and downloaded running aps, set up profiles, looked at training plans (omg yes -- marathon training plans). It tracks my pace. It maps my route (<3 gps). It tells me I'm doing great. It posts my workout so everyone else can tell me I'm doing great.

Today I had my first longer run with the phone and the music and the armband and the ap and the talking voice. And I found it a little over-whelming. I felt like I was missing out on the whole organic experience of running. It seemed like such a waste of the mountain and the trees and the misty rain and the pine needles underfoot. I couldn't hear myself breathe, or think.

I started to get lost in my thoughts despite all this; my thoughts have been pretty insistent lately. But I felt very weighed down and drowned out by all this technology.

It all started with a watch. I timed every run at the beginning. If I forgot my watch, I stopped and went home to get it. The first run that I managed without it was so liberating; I ran the run I wanted and wasn't spending the whole run checking my time. Music also became a crutch for me, and whenever I felt particularly crummy I'd plug in and tune out. But I always felt unsatisfied with these runs, like I hadn't even been there for it.

So I guess what this comes down to is that I am going to have to find other ways to get my technology fix. I think it will take me too far away from the things I love about running.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Stress and Not-running

I've been doing a lot of Not-running lately. This is different from Running, in that it is the exact opposite. That is consistent with my everyday practice of stress-management.

Okay, so this is a recurring problem for me. I have a voluminous amount of stress in my life. Maybe it's no more than anyone else has, and I just don't deal with it as well. I don't know, and really it doesn't matter. It feels like a lot, and I do not manage it well.

I'm aware this is not the first time I've talked about this, and I know it will not be the last, but come on already, I've had enough. How do I break these recurrent habits I have for dealing with too much stress in my life? I know the answer while I'm writing this, but I'm no happy about it. It involves recognizing these habits and choosing to change them rather than mindlessly following my "stress routine." But that is also hard work. (Ugh, look how good I've gotten at excuses.)

Maybe I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop, maybe I'm waiting till I hit bottom with this stress business. I seem to enjoy testing my limits.

Open to suggestions: How do you deal with stress in your life?

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

I'm Almost a Somebody!

So I almost crashed the car while checking my email today (don't judge me). Now hold you're breath: I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED into the Brooks Wear Test Program!! Oh I hope you weren't driving ...

You may remember I applied to the program. I don't know why I think this is so awesome, perhaps you don't also think it's awesome, I don't really care. But they will send me the newest and most bomber shoes for free to run all over in, then they want me to spout off ad nauseum about them. I mean it's an absolutely perfect fit. Oh! I punned.

So, at the end of the email -- well in truth it was probably the last three quarters of the email -- was a disclaimer that I have simply been added to their database of possible testers. This email does not imply a contract. I have not been selected for testing at this time. I have only been added to the pool of possible testers.

Oh my GAWD! I'm so excited. (I said that out loud while typing, and I may have spit on the screen a little.)