Sunday, September 25, 2011

Dear Buddha, I had a bad week.

On Monday, I decided not to run the marathon.

I could do it, I think, but I would not enjoy it. Any of it. That just seems wrong, so I made the call.

I allowed myself a day of full on sulking, eating crap, drinking beers, buying shoes, etc. And then I decided to get over it. Looking back on this week, I did not get over it as well as I'd planned. But no matter, today is a new day. I went back to my training journal to log the week.

Monday: axed the race
Tuesday: sulked
Wednesday: sulked
Thursday: 30 minutes elliptical
Friday: went out and got useless
Saturday: paid for Friday.

I do not feel very satisfied looking back on my week. Then I noticed my inspirational quote for the week. Do you have these? I pick out my favorites and write one for each week in the journal. Some of them are silly, some are meaningful, all of them are relevant and keep me to task. This week's quote is from the Buddha.

All life is suffering.

Buddha, you are so wise. But if you were here in my kitchen, I'd kick you in the shin.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Le Ouch

I am injured. I hurt my knee but didn't notice it right away, and because of that I hurt my hamstring. I am mostly not running for the last week, and probably this week. And maybe next week.

I've never been injured in a way that impacted my ability to run. Sure, there was the time I tripped running in the dark and dislocated my finger, but I just popped it back in and kept running. I guess that's why I am where I am, this time I should have stopped.

My second marathon is in less than a month. This is the one where I set an incredible PR and am all happy and fulfilled, remember? Well, I just skipped my last long training run, and if I can't do it this weekend I'm not doing it at all. And since I can only manage about four miles right now, I'm just a teensy bit aprehensive about the marathon. By aprehensive I mean terrified.

What if I can't do it?